Tuesday, March 17, 2009 @ 2:16 PM
My Dad started it again - 28 February 2009 - Posted by FyNa
Wokeup early in the morning, went to the market to bought fish for cooking. Breakfast together with my parents and we spent time talking to each other. it was nice and fun becuz the topic that we were talking about was interesting and i laughed alot. i told my parents that i'm going out tonight with my friends and will be back home in the morning around 4 or 6am. As usual, my dad don't allow me or nvr allow me to go. But still, with my stubbornness, i still wanna go. My mum just kept quiet. While my mother was cooking and washing the clothes, i helped my mum to prepare for the cooking stuffs and helped her dryout the clothes. After that, she cooked and i went to my room and watched hindi movie. My dad watched sports channel in the living room. My bro and uncle was working. That day my brother reminded me to call our relatives and ask them to come to our house becuz he wanted to celebrate our mum's advance birthday, the official day was on 21st March. He celebrated earlier becuz on the week of our mum's birthday, he has to go for re-service. So that night, my relatives and my brother's GF came and we ate KFC together which my brother ordered earlier on. After eating, we karaokeing till everyone was tired. As for me, i've karaoke earlier and at 7+pm, i went to take a shower and get ready to went out with MaRiLyN and RyO. Actually that night i planned to went out with MaRiLyN and RyO but in the afternoon, RyO text me saying tonight FyNo and Udi are free and so he wanted to go for rounding with his other friends too for the last time before he went for his NS. So, i'm ok with it and i just tag along. As long as MaRiLyN and RyO is there, i should be ok with the others too.
As i'm ready to went out, my dad stopped me and so did the others, i mean my mum and relatives. He asked, where am i going? why must i went out at night? what time i come back home? what kind of girl are u to went out at night? i've said, i went out with my friends to have dinner and chillout to explore the night. i will be back home latest at 6am. He was mad and angry with me. That night he have a wedding invitation from his friend. i waited for him to go off 1st than i go off too. He reminded me if i went out and when he came back and i'm not at home, get ready to be beaten by him. Ahaks. i'm not scared at all. My intention is to spent time with my friends and feel the night outing as that is my 1st night outing go rounding with my friends. i enjoyed it but i think its boring. Hehe. But nevermind, it's an experience for me afterall. That night, there was 10 of us and 2 cars, each car 5 peoples. We went to Al-Ameen to have a big feast but MaRiLyN and i ate the same food as the others ordered a package meal set for 6 peoples i think. After that we went to Seletar Damp to chill the coldness side of the sea/river. That part i was sleepy already. Took some photos with MaRiLyN. About 5am we walked out and separated from that place. FyNo drove us home safely and Udi drove the others back home. On the way back home in the car, NoNa and i fall asleep becuz we both are already tired and sleepy as in i wokeup early in the morning and do housework and NoNa working in the morning till afternoon. Kinda exhausted.
Reached home at 6am and i thought my dad is sleeping but he's not, he's awake waiting for me to came back. My brother has send my mum to work but what a sudden, we saw her at the carpark while FyNo was driving into the carpark to send me. i thought my mum didn't notice us but she did. i alight from the car and walked straight home. Get kicked at my head many times by my dad. He has gone totally insane. Dia tendang saya semasa azan subur. Saya istighfar banyak kali dan cuba untuk melindungi diri saya sendiri. i didn't cry that much becuz i know what i'm doing was nothing wrong. i trust myself and that's why i'm brave enough to faced all this. Eventhough i couldn't fight back with my dad, it doesn't mean that i'm not brave and strong. i'm brave and strong in other ways by being patience and take whatever it has to be. i accept God's willing. if this is how my life journey is, i am willing and be prepare for the best or worst to happen to me.
i couldn't solve my problem with my dad. i already tried my best to talk with him but he still the same. He wants me to understand him but he didn't understand me. He wants people to respect him but he didn't respect people. He thinks what he's doing is right but what people see in him is that he's doing the wrong thing. How am i suppose to have a happy family life with a abusing dad like him? How to make him change? How to make him trust and understand me?
Recently a few months back, i got kicked on my head by him and there's some injuries. There's a blood clog on my head at the hair roots. MaRiLyN took photo of it but she has deleted it away. i still can remember how it looks like. The pain in my head was terrible and i'm afraid if there's any effections that can cause any bad news. i did went for a doctor but that was after 2 months. Haha. i went to Yishun Polyclinic to have my head X-Rayed. The results shows that my skull are not fractured. So i'm saved. But i wanted to check my blood since i had a blood clog. So for further checkup, they send my X-Rayed record to NUH to have my next scanning checkup at there. Scanning is for blood purpose. X-Ray is for bones. So, i'm looking forward for the checkup.
Lately 2 weeks back, i got kicked again on my head by him and this time there's alot of injuries and i felt the pain was more terrible. My left side of my face and my left back ear was swollened and has a red mark on it. My left side of body like my hand was in damn pain. if u touch it, it is pain. And for now, i didn't went for a doctor for checkup becuz i'm waiting for the next checkup next month. Wish me luck. i hope there's no effections.
Here's a photo for u to see and tell me, is my dad abusing me or what?
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