Friday, March 20, 2009 @ 3:26 AM
U Still Remain In My Heart - Posted by FyNa
We brokeup on the 13th February 09. i just noticed that it falls on the same date which i 1st met him, it's on 13th too. Well, i didn't expect that our relationship could ended this fast which we had a short period of time to be together, in love. i'm totally upset about it. it's hard for me to let him go. On the day we brokeup, i didn't cry badly as i think that i could accept the fate.
As days goes by, i started to feel more upset and the feelings getting more worst which i couldn't control myself at all. i started to cry badly most of the time becuz i miss our moments together. What i do and where i go, i always remember and think of him. Till now too. i couldn't resist and simply forget him. i love him so much, so dearly.
Ur too great for me. Can i say that ur my dream guy that i'm looking for all this while?
Last few months, i wrote a letter for him. i wanted to give him so i thought i should give it to RyO to help me pass to him. But i couldn't becuz i think that he couldn't make up for what i wanted in the letter. i've let MaRiLyN read it and she said i should give it a try to win his heart back. i wanted to try but i don't know. i've no confident and i'm confused. RyO told me that i should give it a try and if it's still i can't win his heart, at least i try. its a good thing. i remembered he said to me that "Everyone deserve a 2nd chance." MaRiLyN said that too to me, " Everyone deserve a 2nd chance and why not u both give each other a 2nd chance to clear and settle things rightly?" i wanted to but his reaction shows that he don't want. i know it's easy to say and hard to do. i know it's hard for him to make a decision in this type of situation. But if i were him, i still felt the guiltyness and i don't bother what people said or do or whatever becuz i believe in myself and i know what i'm doing. "With the strong love we had, i'm sure nothing could break us apart."
in the letter, i wrote, i wanted and i asked, "Can i have the 2nd chance to have u back again?"
P.S. For him, if u read this post, i want u to know that till now, i'm still hoping that we could be together back...one day.
i miss you.
